in these times, i wish i were a butterfly

8:57pm DAvao SUgar time
im hungry.
yet i dont wanna eat.
i wanna cry,.
i really wanna cry.
but shit man,have cried for these past few nyts.
im into a storm right now..
a lot of things i worry about,
i miss a lot of things
i miss a lot of people.
well i jus hope no damn person reads this now behind me.
im hungry.
i think im gonna have ulcer
darn joyce
gotta eat a little.
but my mind opposes.
dunno.
i have so much in my mind and heart for now.
it has almost reached saturation
i miss school
people and events in school makes me happy.
its really great to be in school tho andaming pressure.
whoaa... expect the worse this last year in colej joys.
tho i think im gettng ready
but its just so freakin tiring to have so many things in ur mind.
im just glad im not the suicidal type.
dont wanna use my friendster blog.
catches much attention.
naha..ive learned my lesson
ya know wat?
ive been into whining into that blog before.
it helped me a lot tho..
in releasing all the tension and stress i have.
as in,
im just that kind of person who, when angry or sad or onto any extreme feeling,
jus prefers to talk or write and express my feelings.\
whoaa.. ganyan ako.
mushy!
watevr.
dont care!
im hungry.
i wanna eat yet i wont!
this hasnt been an ordinary day.
i made a confession to 2 friends.
has been quite hard for me to do.
yet it has been a relief.
helped me somehow to lighten the burden that i carry in my heart for now.
well., theyre guys and im just amazed i was able to share a part of me with them.
ei, dont think dirty.
im serious here..
whoaaa... my mom's calling..
dont wanna answer it for now.
i still have about an hour to make yawyaw here.
mahaba-haba pa ang mababasa mo.

well ya, in these times,
i wish i were a butterfly.
i wanna fly away.
away from this thing that i feel..
this thing that ive been thinking about..
this situation that im into.
i feel so sunken
shit man.
i wish i were a butterfly,.
that i can go to another place..
to a garden so full of beautiful flowers..
that brings happiness and joy to my day
i wish that i can see new horizons
and see that this is not all there is.

wat do i do wen i get home.
i wana cry.
ya this is pathetic.
but i prefer it this way.
when im into this DOWN syndrome
i prefer to cry my heart out
so that after the rain i feel so fulfilled
victoriuos!
drama
ya drama joyz!
ya victorius cuz i still am able to witness and enjoy the next sunrise
tho i dont get to see it talaga..
well dont take this literally tho..
i wanna sleep
but i wanna talk with anybody,
aaahhh..
cge2 il go home nalang..
perhaps matet is home na..
or cyril.
well i jus hope hes not asleep yet.
havent talked with him for eons,
hmmmm.... im hungry.
damn it joys u eat..
but i dont want to
how ironic it seems for now
cuz usually when im super depressed
i eat a lot
and now, y cant i?
dunno.
perhaps im weird.
or just soo incomprehendible
is there such a term?
whoa..
cant catch the wednesday night live on the radio
thats just what im looking forward to for the week
great music e
a lav 8!
well anyway yawyaw nako diri..
i hope God doesnt answer that wish of mine
i dont wanna be a butterfly tho.
i just wish cud be
doesnt mean i wana be.

reminds me of this politician
PICHAY!
wwwwithhh his words:
PANGARAP KONG TUPARIN ANG PANGARAP MO!
just sooo freakin funny.
pangarap niya lang.
so mangarap ka ngunit wag umasa na tutuparin nia ang pangarap mo
kasi nga pangarap nia lang.
whoaa! hahahhhahah
what a clever ad!